Pain Away Today!!
I really need to do something about my pain level. Actually, to clarify, I need to apply the Law of Attraction to abolishing my pain level.
As I’ve mentioned before, about three weeks ago, I decided I needed to get rid of the Oxycodone in my life. I went on a five day purge to get the stuff out of my body. DO NOT DO THIS EVER!
I expected to be ill for about 72 hours but I only felt literally mind-numbingly ill for about 24 hours. After that, I started to feel better, especially mentally, but I’m still paying for this decision. I’m incredibly sensitive to smells and tastes. A week after I did this, I couldn’t walk more than a few feet without panting like a dog . I’m also very tired but some of this is because I’m having higher levels of pain and I’m not sleeping well at night.
Breakfast is the most difficult meal. I almost literally have to hold my nose and pump down my oatmeal. I wouldn’t bother but the diabetes nutritionist made a huge deal about eating breakfast and I do feel better when I eat this meal.
So, Why Did I Put Myself Through This?
I’ve realized for some time now, I was taking the medication, not for pain, but to maintain the level of drug in my body. I had been taking either Percocet or Oxycodone for over a year. My body had gotten used to taking it every few hours – way more often than was prescribed by my doctor. Actually, I believed once I’d gotten the drug out of my body, I would find I didn’t have all that much pain after all, which turned out to be very wrong.
Surprise, Surprise! The Pain Is Alive And Well After All.
When the pain level went into overdrive, I had to get my prescription refilled but I have been very successful in keeping the dose down to ten milligrams every six hours. (I would judge my pain level is at the six or seven level.) (Definition of pain levels: http://www.tipna.org/info/documents/ComparativePainScale.htm) I have found that ten milligrams of medication successfully keeps any feelings of withdrawal at bay and usually controls the pain for about 5 or 5 ½ hours, which I’m able to handle until it’s time for the next dose. However, there still seems to be times when no amount of medication is going to totally control the pain. Even after taking the medication, the pain stubbornly stays at the six or seven level until the next dose is due. I have to be very careful to maintain my schedule during those times, which, of course, are always around midnight to four a.m. I’ve learned various techniques to distract my mind during these times. (I’ve put a few games on my phone and I always have at least one book going. )
Do You See The Problem?
So far I’ve been defining my pain level the way it is. I need to start telling another story. First of all, I need to decide what the story shall be. Am I brave enough to really let go of the pain medication? What has the pain come to mean in my life? You see the problems. Perhaps you, Fellow Traveler, have similar problems. How did you solve them?
This I Do Know:
I am absolutely certain I want to be healthy and fit. I know it’s easier to handle pain when the body, overall, is in good condition and when all muscles are able to function at their fullest possible strength . I’ve been there. I know how wonderful this feels. I want this feeling again.
This I Can Do Now:
I want to start my day at about 6:30 every day. I will brush my teeth and shower. I will be ready to start my day with exercise and meditation. During the exercise time, I will visualize my life as I want it to be with my body completely healed and healthy. I will visualize my body at the appropriate weight for my height but also for my fitness level. Muscle weighs more than fat; thus, BMI measurements are not always accurate because this scale does not take into account more muscle in a really fit person. I also want to see my day starting out with healthy food choices.
Don’t Worry, Be Happy
Happiness is a choice and I will make the choice every day to see the happiness in that day. Every day I will count my blessings because I have so very much to be grateful for.
Doing all these things including visual meditation will get my day started in a way which invites the Law of Attraction to work in my life to create my life the way I really want it to be.